..summer's end..

The end of the summer is nearing every day and the call of fall is upon us… I find myself through out the days looking out my office window in the middle of busy work days wondering where has the time gone? So much has happen in the last few weeks and yet so much has taken place in the last few months. With the change of the season coming I can feel the change of my life coming not that far behind it.

This summer I have learned the meaning of having harmony with in one’s self, with your heart and mind, knowing when to walk away but more importantly how to walk away. I have learned that with love comes even greater responsibility. That it’s okay to be flawed and even more okay to appreciate your flaws in order to be more grateful for your skills; I have learned that no matter how many times you fall that as long as you always get back up and keep trying life has a way of surprising you with treasure. I’ve come to know my real friends and I have come to know just how important those friends are; I have learned that sometimes the lesson isn’t in the resolution but in thick of the mess. I’ve learned that I’m a lot more stronger than what I give myself credit for and that I’m a lot more sassy than I think I am.

Overall, I would say that this summer, these past few months have been learning blocks of getting to know myself. Finding that it’s okay to love me and to take that love to love and share with others. Finding the simple truth that life is messy and that’s what makes it so great.

I end this summer ready to start a new and exciting chapter in my life, in my journey and travel a road not so much less traveled but a road more prepared to accept that no matter how rough life may get there is still laughter to be had, dreams to be fulfilled, and memories to be made. I’m excited to see where this chapter leads and how it will play out, I’m excited for the same characters to bloom with in the new and to meet new characters who will add twist to at times already crazy road.

~they~

Calmly they walk and safely they play. Wide open eyes and innocent intent. Peacefully they stroll and wildly they dance. As quickly as they came, they were quickly gone. One can see the past and the other the future. As one comes to find tomorrow, the other comes to find today. Each one is different and each one the same. Both interconnected and both perfectly apart, one defines the other and the other defines the heart. Each is one and each is by itself. There is no perfect rhyme or reason as to why they come and why they go. They are and they are not all in one perfect moment.

The mirror image each holds for each other states why they belong and their very different lives each has states why they are a part. No one thing is ever the same and no one thing is ever alone. They stand side by side forever, never parting from each other. One shines for today and the other will shine for tomorrow. They provide each with hope to grow and hope to remember. When one ends the other begins. They never go with out each other but they never start when they other is in place. Their moment is always shared in some small way but their moment is always theirs'. One is nothing with out the other and the other is everything with out the one.

Life is a circle, it spins forever. One thing changes and a new things begins, the circle is always spinning. Just like the circle that is life so are they. They continue to go as long as one sees fit. Never stopping but always changing in the mill that they grind. They breath with one breath and beat with one heart. They walk with one body and movement, they are so that the other might be and they go so that they other may start.

They are not of two bodies with one heart but of one body with one heart. They are you and me yesterday and today. They are our past and our future. They are our tomorrow and forever. They are the change that brought us to today and they are the we, we were before the us that we are today. We begin and we end yesterday and today, always and forever.

...27... it's gonna be a good year!

I turned 27 on August 4, 2010... 27! Oh my word! My lovely friend Amber Hicks so kindly pointed out that I'm 3 years away from being 30... Gosh I just love her for pointing that out! Haha... But in all seriousness I can honestly say that I had one great birthday!

To help kick things off just right for my 27th on Sunday, August 1st my mama made my favorite meal of all time! Her broccoli, cheese, chicken & rice casserole!!!! Yummy stuff! Thank you mama! She also got me one cute cake!!! Chocolate cake with peanut butter cup ice cream... My mother knows me all to well. I had my family birthday dinner with my parents (love you mommy & daddy), my older brother Thomas & his adorable little family.. Jennifer and their two boys, my adorable little munchkins.. K.C. & Xander. My younger brother Adam & his wife Tiffany were also there to share in the fun. Tiff's bday was the day before along with my parents 31st wedding anniversary. The baby of our fine family was living it large in Vegas on vaca but don't worry... He came home with plenty of loot for his big sis on her bday! Love my family!

..my adorable bday cake that my mommy got me..

 With the help of family & friends my birthday WEEK just kept on getting better & better...

Monday, 8/2/10.. My sissy, Jeanette surprised me with tickets to go and see Mindy Gledhill perform at her album release show down in Provo. What a treat that was! I was so stoked because I love Mindy! She is amazing and if you are not aware of her check her out  http://www.mindygledhill.com/, I'm not lying when I say that you will fall in love with her and stay in love with her. After the show we were able to meet Mindy Gledhill and buy her new album... Which of course I did! And she totally signed it for me! Such a great night. Thank you again Sissy!

~Me, Sissy, & Rachel waiting in line to meet Mindy Gledhill~

..Meeting Mindy Gledhill.. 

Wednesday, August 4, 2010... My actual BIRTHDAY!!! Such a great and happy day! That morning I woke up, headed into the bathroom to find a note siting on the shower door for me. The note was from daddy :) and he had written this note on a Christmas Card.. LOL He was wishing me a "Happy Birthday!" and letting me know that he had clean the bathtub for me for my birthday... Haha.. Seriously?! How did I get so lucky to have a such a great and funny dad? Let me tell you though it was sure nice to take a shower in a clean tub & a clean tub that I didn't have to clean! Thanks dad! When I arrived at work I was greeted with well wishes and happy birthdays from all around.One thing that I love about birthdays... You're kind of popular and it's kind of fun! My adorable friends Amber & Crystal were too cute... They brought in flowers & a little bday cake for me. We have this tradition where we bring each other cake & flowers for each others on our birthdays every year, best tradition EVER! Thank you girls! The day just kept going and kept getting better as it went...

For lunch that afternoon the girls from the office & I ventured over to Trolley Square which is a shopping center in down town SLC, UT ... We went to the ONE & ONLY Old Spaghetti Factory located with in the Trolley Square.. Yummy! Yummy! Yummy! Such a great place to have my birthday lunch with some pretty amazing ladies! After lunch I was surprised by my good friend Sheri Jensen who stopped by my office on her way to the airport before she flew out of town to Cali for vaca.. She came with a single red rose and some cute little goodies in hand with a big birthday hug to boot! I can honestly say that I easily have the BEST friends in the world that a girl could ever have!
For my birthday night! My awesome friend Kade or as I prefer.. Kadinkins! Was so kind to take me out on the town for dinner at Mimi's and a movie at Jordan Commons.. We had some yummy food, played some awesome games at the arcade and watched a very strange movie... Charlie St. Cloud (if you ask us.. don't waste your time watching this movie), we learned that evening that apparently ghost can have sex?! WTH? Yeah totally strange movie. Over all though.. Between the two of us.. Kadikins and I can make any moment the best moment ever! We had a blast! Thank you Kadikins!

Kadikins & I waiting for our movie to start... We are so attractive! 

 Friday, 8/6/10... I was told to show up at Meeshy Boo's house at 6:30pm but I was not told as to what we were doing for the evening. When I arrived.... Meeshy was in the kitchen cookin' up a storm and SkyeBabe was on her way over. SkyeBabe not too shortly after I did, she came in with presents in hand and a big fat smile on her face! Love that girl! She gave me a hug and than was quickly at Meeshy's side helpin' with the cooking. They made some yummy pasta & chicken and a fabulous salad. We had dinner, shared some laughter and than enjoyed some ice cream & cake! I was than told that it was present time!!!! I love my girls! They seriously know me WAY too well!
Meeshy... She gave me the cutest pair of flower shoes! They're adorable!!!! I love them! And of course a super adorable card! Skye.. She got me the most amazing picture of one my idols, Audrey Hepburn!!!! This is now hanging in my office =) & she bought me a super cute hand band.
After present time we headed downstairs to watch ourselves some Roller Bounce! Great movie.. Any movie with roller skates is a great movie! LOL.. I had a such a great night!!!! Thank you Meeshy & SkyeBabe!

*my adorable flower shoes! thank you meeshy*

*audrey hepburn! love this pic! thank skyebabe!*

*cute hand band.. thank you skyebabe*

Meeshy, Me & Skye Babe ..these ladies right here are the best EVER!

Ending the week.. On 8/7/2010 6 of us gathered together down town at the Red Lion Hotel on 6th South to meet up with the FUN BUS to head out to Wendover to stir up some fun and trouble! Let me just say that I had one great night with these 5 great people!!!! Kelly, Troy, Patty, Skye & Meeshy rocked my world in Wendover! We ate some really bad food at the local buffet, had some good dessert, gambled a little money, danced our socks off and listen to one great band at the Rainbow.. it was a night of fun and memories that I'm so grateful to have. We left Salt Lake around 6pm and didn't arrive back till about 4am ... That should tell you that Wendover did us right! =) LOL such a fun birthday!!!!

Meeshy, Skye, Patty, Me, Kelly & Troy .. Getting on the FUN BUS!

I just want to say thank you to my family & my friends for one great birthday and birthday week! I am the luckiest girl in the world to know and have such amazing people in my life to share life with! Thank you for all that you each do for me and have done for me! I love you all!!!! Thank you!

Thank you for the lessons..

One can only imagine life with out those that they love because no one would really want to live life with out those very people who make life worth living for. I can honestly say that over the last few weeks I have come to truly understand the power that comes with allowing yourself to love, feel and share your life with others. I'm not just blessed with an amazing family who never stops loving me but never stop inspiring, supporting and teaching me; I'm also blessed with some amazing friends.. Friends who seem to always have the right words to push me over the edge in becoming better.

I have learned that love is never too far from you are but you are always too far from it when you are too busy thinking about yourself and stuck in your world of  "what about me?". Love isn't just about dating someone or having that one special relationship with someone... Love is loving yourself, loving those around and loving what you have right now; not wishing for something more, something better. To appreciate all that you have and enjoy all that there is in every moment you find that beauty that is and the LOVE that surrounds you. It is through my amazing friends & family that I have come to truly understand & appreciate this lesson.

I just want to say to all of the beautiful people in my life.. THANK YOU! Thank you for being there, teaching me and showing me the joys in this world. Thank you for putting up with my faults and baring with me as I over come them. Thank you for your love and kindness! Thank you for the laughter and memories. I hope that one day I am able to repair each of you one by one for all that you each have done personally for me.

Again... From the bottom of my heart... Thank you & I love you all dearly.