I'm finding that there is great peace to be found in owning up to the things you have failed in. Coming to the realization that I still have so much to learn hasn't been an easy thing, but it hasn't been the worst thing either. Knowing that even though I may fail in the area of friend, co-worker, daughter, and/or individual at times, it doesn't make me a bad person it just makes me human. I'm learning to be okay with my many imperfections, that just because I don't get things right this time around doesn't mean that I won't the next time.
I use to get so caught up in trying to please everyone and be something/someone that I thought that I needed to be in order to fit what the world thought that I lost myself. I spent so much time looking for what I thought that I needed and not enough time on what I already had which was everything and more. I spent so much time letting others take that when I felt the need for a friend those same people who took seemed to have disappeared.
In my constant frustration with the flip flopper's in my life I was too weak to confront them, only instead to talk behind their backs. I learned that there is no justice in "venting" only gossip and more frustration. I not only hurt the person that I spoke about but I hurt myself from finding joy in just moving forward in my life and letting things go. It is in the very moment that I was called out on the thing that I said that I was able to really find some peace, the peace that I didn't even know that I needed. I was able to see some light in myself due to the opportunity to do the right thing. The right thing being to respectfully own up to what I had done and admit that I had handled it poorly and apologize for doing so. Once I did that I was able to see that there was greater satisfaction in admitting my wrong than trying to dispute it. I was able to learn a great lesson, that there is an answer with in the mistake you just have to be willing to take the time to find it.
I think that the biggest thing that I was able to walk away with from this was that life is simple... There is no reason for it to be difficult. You either apologize or you don't, you forgive or you don't, OR you move on or you don't. There is only right or there is wrong and there is light or there is dark, it is up to us to decide which path in this journey and once we do it's our blessing to learn & grow every step that we take.
Again, I may not be perfect and yes, I have so much to learn in this great life but overall I love who am I as a person and I'm grateful for the chance that I have to be better even though I continue to fall from time to time.
So... Recap... Life is simple... Such simple pleasures do truly make you happy, be not afraid to confront your feelings and be direct with those that they effect. AND love yourself inside and out. Be honest with you and share who you are with those around you, never let someone else out shine who you are and be kind hearted in all matters of life. As Elder Holland best said it in 2010 General Conference Saturday session, true love in all areas of life.
I use to get so caught up in trying to please everyone and be something/someone that I thought that I needed to be in order to fit what the world thought that I lost myself. I spent so much time looking for what I thought that I needed and not enough time on what I already had which was everything and more. I spent so much time letting others take that when I felt the need for a friend those same people who took seemed to have disappeared.
In my constant frustration with the flip flopper's in my life I was too weak to confront them, only instead to talk behind their backs. I learned that there is no justice in "venting" only gossip and more frustration. I not only hurt the person that I spoke about but I hurt myself from finding joy in just moving forward in my life and letting things go. It is in the very moment that I was called out on the thing that I said that I was able to really find some peace, the peace that I didn't even know that I needed. I was able to see some light in myself due to the opportunity to do the right thing. The right thing being to respectfully own up to what I had done and admit that I had handled it poorly and apologize for doing so. Once I did that I was able to see that there was greater satisfaction in admitting my wrong than trying to dispute it. I was able to learn a great lesson, that there is an answer with in the mistake you just have to be willing to take the time to find it.
I think that the biggest thing that I was able to walk away with from this was that life is simple... There is no reason for it to be difficult. You either apologize or you don't, you forgive or you don't, OR you move on or you don't. There is only right or there is wrong and there is light or there is dark, it is up to us to decide which path in this journey and once we do it's our blessing to learn & grow every step that we take.
Again, I may not be perfect and yes, I have so much to learn in this great life but overall I love who am I as a person and I'm grateful for the chance that I have to be better even though I continue to fall from time to time.
So... Recap... Life is simple... Such simple pleasures do truly make you happy, be not afraid to confront your feelings and be direct with those that they effect. AND love yourself inside and out. Be honest with you and share who you are with those around you, never let someone else out shine who you are and be kind hearted in all matters of life. As Elder Holland best said it in 2010 General Conference Saturday session, true love in all areas of life.
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